I hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July. It truly is independence day, in more ways than one. It's the independence of our country, and the independence within ourselves. The appropriate WW topic for the week was 'Thindependence". How true. Let's declare our thindependence from our weight!
As I weighed in this week, at my all time low of 119, I got to thinking a lot about it and why I can't seem to go back up to my healthy weight range. I came up with this conclusion. The weight I lost, is the extra baggage I've been carrying around for a long long time. I'm talking the emotional baggage. And I think I can't gain it back, because I've released that baggage and refuse to have it control my life any more.
I think that's true for a lot of us in a sense. Maybe, just maybe, there is more to our weight issues than just overeating, as people like to think. I think, when we are truly ready to shed the weight, it will happen, when we release the control it has over us. Once we become one with it, and release it's control, the weight will come off.
It's not an overnight process. It took me 14 years to release my extra baggage of things I was holding on to, that wasn't healthy for me. I let a certain thing control my life for 14 long years. But when the divorce started moving along, I held a ceremony. And I released it all and told it, "you don't serve me any more". And, for the first time in 14 years, I started getting my life back. Obviously, the divorce is not what I held on to for 14 years because otherwise, we'd hold the record for the longest filing of a divorce in history. It's something else. But the divorce opened the door allowing the emotional things that had been destroying me little by little to go. And when I held that ceremony, it all went.
It's not to say that other things won't come in and replace it. I'm going through some things right now, in addition to the divorce, that is just as unhealthy for my weight. But I am working day by day, minute by minute, not allowing it to control and consume me. Yes, it affects the weight. It made me lose 5 lbs in 1 day. But I think, once I can learn to just release and let go of these stressful situations that happen (and they will because we are in this thing called 'life'), that everything else will fall into place.
So let's declare our thindependence AND our independence of the control our weight has over us, and just release it and let it go, and know that once we do, we will have our lives back and be at the weight we need to be at.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Good morning!
It is 1:15 a.m., and I just wanted to wish everyone a good morning. I go to the doctor in the morning. I'm still suffering from Vegas and one full day of piggying out. So the doctor won't be mad at me, since I'm not underweight. But I do need to get back on program. I think if I had some fruit, that might help. Been eating a lot of carbs lately. Not good. Someone kick me in the butt. I need it. If I can gain around 9 lbs or so going to Vegas, and that was only for 2 days, I'm heading in a direction I don't want to head. I've been better, so I've lost about 3 lbs again. But these late night cravings are killing me. Guess I should take the lessons I give out !!!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
I forgot to add...
As of June 10th, thanks to Vegas, I am no longer underweight.
I guess that is good ???
I guess that is good ???
June 10, 2009
Sorry this is going to have to be short and sweet, but I have to get ready to go to work.
Just wanted to let you know, that Vegas is great! Got a chance to meet up with some online WW friends and had a blast.
Have a great day everyone!
Just wanted to let you know, that Vegas is great! Got a chance to meet up with some online WW friends and had a blast.
Have a great day everyone!
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
May 20, 2009
Sorry, but I just got to release this and let it go, so forgive me for just blogging my thoughts. But I've got to get this off my chest, and this is the only place I know that I can do that.
I always thought of myself as an emotional eater. Usually, I eat anything in sight. There's only one time in my life that I can recall, where it was the type of stress that made you lose your appetite and food made you ill to even think about. That is, up until now. 14 years later, and the big stress #2 kicks in.
My DH (yes, I still call him dear, as he will always be my best friend) came home for a visit less than a month ago. (if you didn't know, he lives 3 1/2 hrs away due to a job promotion and he moved away 2 1/2 years ago). He asked for a divorce.
If you haven't been through a divorce, it's about the exact same as a death. In a sense it is. It means an end. A finale. For us, it is an end to 24 years of marriage. The sad part is, I do not blame him. The other sad part is, he is the absolute love of my life and I'm going to miss him with every ounce of my being... ALWAYS. And, I wish I could take back every mistake I ever made in this marriage, because he is still worth it.
I do recognize, that it takes two to make a marriage work, and it takes two to make a divorce. So while he may not recognize it, I know that we both made mistakes that led to this point. I would never want it to go back to the way it was. That is what brought us here. But a rebirth of a new beginning together would be heaven.
The one thing I've learned, is that divorces are ALWAYS based upon the past. So, being the future isn't written yet, anything is possible.
Unless you are the one initiating the divorce, divorce equals no appetite. Which doesn't help someone like me that is about 11 lbs now under my low end of my weight range.
I guess the good in this, is that I am going to quit smoking. I don't have much of an option. I'll be supporting my kids for the most part, with help from them, and I can't have them go hungry, in order for me to feed a habit. I'm working with the doctor on this, so wish me well. And stay out of my way and don't take it personal if I become a b***h for a while... lol
Love you all. Have a great skinny day and thank you for letting me vent.
I always thought of myself as an emotional eater. Usually, I eat anything in sight. There's only one time in my life that I can recall, where it was the type of stress that made you lose your appetite and food made you ill to even think about. That is, up until now. 14 years later, and the big stress #2 kicks in.
My DH (yes, I still call him dear, as he will always be my best friend) came home for a visit less than a month ago. (if you didn't know, he lives 3 1/2 hrs away due to a job promotion and he moved away 2 1/2 years ago). He asked for a divorce.
If you haven't been through a divorce, it's about the exact same as a death. In a sense it is. It means an end. A finale. For us, it is an end to 24 years of marriage. The sad part is, I do not blame him. The other sad part is, he is the absolute love of my life and I'm going to miss him with every ounce of my being... ALWAYS. And, I wish I could take back every mistake I ever made in this marriage, because he is still worth it.
I do recognize, that it takes two to make a marriage work, and it takes two to make a divorce. So while he may not recognize it, I know that we both made mistakes that led to this point. I would never want it to go back to the way it was. That is what brought us here. But a rebirth of a new beginning together would be heaven.
The one thing I've learned, is that divorces are ALWAYS based upon the past. So, being the future isn't written yet, anything is possible.
Unless you are the one initiating the divorce, divorce equals no appetite. Which doesn't help someone like me that is about 11 lbs now under my low end of my weight range.
I guess the good in this, is that I am going to quit smoking. I don't have much of an option. I'll be supporting my kids for the most part, with help from them, and I can't have them go hungry, in order for me to feed a habit. I'm working with the doctor on this, so wish me well. And stay out of my way and don't take it personal if I become a b***h for a while... lol
Love you all. Have a great skinny day and thank you for letting me vent.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Sorry I haven't been on here as frequently. I'm just going through a lot of challenges right now, non-weight ones, that I want to make my priority right now.
I will be on here when I can, but know that you can always email me for support and any questions you might have to help you on your journey.
For now, just take this journey one day at a time, and as slow as it may appear to go, just know it's all good. Embrace every ounce, and embrace everything in your life. Every day is a blessing, even if we don't always see it.
I will be on here when I can, but know that you can always email me for support and any questions you might have to help you on your journey.
For now, just take this journey one day at a time, and as slow as it may appear to go, just know it's all good. Embrace every ounce, and embrace everything in your life. Every day is a blessing, even if we don't always see it.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
April 28, 2009
Hello everyone,
As the weather gets warmer, what a wonderful opportunity to go walking more and earning some activity points.
Personally, I've never been too fond of exercise. I mean it's hard work! But, when Weight Watchers started that Walk-In Challenge, I can't believe how excited I was at the prospect of starting.
First, I used the coupon they gave us to buy a WW pedometer. It's great. Not 100% accurate, but closer than others. So none are completely accurate. And it's not enough to say, "oh my, I can't get this because I walked 10,000 more steps than it says". No, that's not the case. As I said, it's pretty close. And for $18, why not. It has a stop watch, an activity point giver thing (not sure what it's called, but it's where you put it on this, for a particular event, like a 5K, and it calculates your points). I put it on the all day mode, to see how many steps I get in during the day. Sometimes I don't get enough in to earn an Activity point, but that's okay. I'm still walking more than I used to.
I put the word out online about a walking group I was starting, and the ladies I have met are absolutely wonderful. And we have fun walking. So it takes the work out of exercise. We set it up for in the morning, so we can continue to do this, even after the heat sets in. That's the ONLY drawback, is I'd like to hit my snooze button instead of get out of bed. But the ladies keep me motivated to through off the covers and go walking.
I planted a garden, so been working out there every day. I water by hand with a watering can, to keep weeds in control. I've actually got a couple peppers ready to plant, and this morning I saw a couple zucchini's. I can't wait. I love fresh vegetables. And I actually enjoy going out to pull and hoe weeds. I don't count it as activity points, as I figure it's just an added bonus earning some activity and not eating to counter-act it. But that's my opinion. (And I'm sticking to it)
I'll be off work Friday and Saturday of this week, because I'm meeting Nay (a WW online member) and Cyndy (another online WW member) for dinner on Friday. I can't wait. I have met Nay once before about a month and a half ago, but I have never met Cyndy before. I feel like a school girl, getting giggly as the day comes closer.
While I'm off work on my days off, I will be also working on my website. Any suggestions? Anything you'd like to see added?
I had my WW meeting yesterday. While my doctor wrote me a 'prescription' to keep going to WW and lowered my low end of my range to 124, he does want me to gain some. So he will be happy, as I gained 3.4 lbs this week, bringing me up to 127.2 lbs. Maybe from all the walking and retaining fluid. Also it should be close to TOM. Plus, I added a couple points a day on most days. Not enough points for a 3.4 lb gain, but it made the people at my meeting happy, so that is good.
Have a great skinny week everybody. May you all be 'losers' this week at the scale. But if you're not, don't forget to look at the other changes in you that are happening as well. They are all important, not just what the scale says.
As the weather gets warmer, what a wonderful opportunity to go walking more and earning some activity points.
Personally, I've never been too fond of exercise. I mean it's hard work! But, when Weight Watchers started that Walk-In Challenge, I can't believe how excited I was at the prospect of starting.
First, I used the coupon they gave us to buy a WW pedometer. It's great. Not 100% accurate, but closer than others. So none are completely accurate. And it's not enough to say, "oh my, I can't get this because I walked 10,000 more steps than it says". No, that's not the case. As I said, it's pretty close. And for $18, why not. It has a stop watch, an activity point giver thing (not sure what it's called, but it's where you put it on this, for a particular event, like a 5K, and it calculates your points). I put it on the all day mode, to see how many steps I get in during the day. Sometimes I don't get enough in to earn an Activity point, but that's okay. I'm still walking more than I used to.
I put the word out online about a walking group I was starting, and the ladies I have met are absolutely wonderful. And we have fun walking. So it takes the work out of exercise. We set it up for in the morning, so we can continue to do this, even after the heat sets in. That's the ONLY drawback, is I'd like to hit my snooze button instead of get out of bed. But the ladies keep me motivated to through off the covers and go walking.
I planted a garden, so been working out there every day. I water by hand with a watering can, to keep weeds in control. I've actually got a couple peppers ready to plant, and this morning I saw a couple zucchini's. I can't wait. I love fresh vegetables. And I actually enjoy going out to pull and hoe weeds. I don't count it as activity points, as I figure it's just an added bonus earning some activity and not eating to counter-act it. But that's my opinion. (And I'm sticking to it)
I'll be off work Friday and Saturday of this week, because I'm meeting Nay (a WW online member) and Cyndy (another online WW member) for dinner on Friday. I can't wait. I have met Nay once before about a month and a half ago, but I have never met Cyndy before. I feel like a school girl, getting giggly as the day comes closer.
While I'm off work on my days off, I will be also working on my website. Any suggestions? Anything you'd like to see added?
I had my WW meeting yesterday. While my doctor wrote me a 'prescription' to keep going to WW and lowered my low end of my range to 124, he does want me to gain some. So he will be happy, as I gained 3.4 lbs this week, bringing me up to 127.2 lbs. Maybe from all the walking and retaining fluid. Also it should be close to TOM. Plus, I added a couple points a day on most days. Not enough points for a 3.4 lb gain, but it made the people at my meeting happy, so that is good.
Have a great skinny week everybody. May you all be 'losers' this week at the scale. But if you're not, don't forget to look at the other changes in you that are happening as well. They are all important, not just what the scale says.
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